Articulate
Bored
Confused
Down
Empty
Funny
Gloomy
Havoc
Indecisive
Joy
Kudos
Lost
Melancholy
Nocturnal
Obscure
Pathetic
Quinsy
Riot
Sore
Tired
Unsatisfied
Vengeance??
Weak
Xmen??duh…
Yawning
Zzzzzzzzzzz…….better i sleep than wasting my time writing crappy things like this. May tomorrow the sun shines brighter than today….
=(
It has been nearly a month since i entered intec as an ausmatian18. Well, technically, i am a junior but that doesnt mean that i am totally a junior (read: skema junior, yg takut nak wat salah sbb still in a new environment). Due to my special case, I am not like others in my batch which r afraid to break any rules. Im not like others that will wake up as early as 5.30 am and at sharp 7.00am patiently waiting for the bus although classes will start at 8.00 am. No! That is so totally not me! And that’s what makes me quite ‘GLAMOUR’ in my class. But plz dont misunderstood me like i was doin it purposely.
Well, im not proud to tell u this. But, on my first day, first lesson as an ausmatian18, i was 30 minutes late for my computer lesson. Gosh! U wouldnt know how abashed i was to explain n apologize from pn.Azian for coming late to class in front of 28 people that used to be my classmates for this semester.Yikes! Im sure, some of them might thought like this.
"Teruknya budak nih. 1st class dah dtg lambat.dtg intec ni blaja ke apa"
"With this kind of attitude, i dont think she will success in her life"
"Fuh…sebaik aku sempat berebut naik bas td. Kalau tak, mesti aku jd cam dia gak. MALUNYE YG AMAT! MANA LA NAK LETAK MUKA. "
Erm…if u r not living in cemara-akasia, u woudnt know how much disaster it is when it comes to ride the bus. wohoho. kisah perebutan menaiki bas paling dasat r penah dilihat. Beg koyak, sandal tercabut, sakit kena himpit sumer adala.In a simpler word, mmg horrible! And on that day, I went out from my house at 7.55 a.m (i thot, it is the most practical time lah sbb tak yah nak berebut2 sgt. Thus, pn. azian had told us before, that she will only start her class at 8.15 becoz she wants all of us to had our breakfast first) So, kalo nak ikut calculation, mmg smpat la smpai b4 or at least tepat 8.15. UNFORTUNATELY, it wasnt my lucky day. Driver bas nak tunggu bas penuh dlu br gerak. So, i dont have any other solution rather than praying and wishing that in the next minute the bas will start to move. Yes, my wish has been granted but it was too late. Bas gerak kul 8.15. And i arrived 8.30a.m…..(poor me…)
I learnt my lesson and determined that i wont repeat the same mistakes ever. Of course la! MALU GLE k dtg lmbt! Mesti sumer classmates dah ada bad impression of me. So, the next day, which is on Friday I went out from my house slightly early, 7.45am.And of course,according to my calculation, I will be able to arrive at intec on time. I just need some luck and skill nak menyelit masuk bas je. n once again, UNFORTUNATELY, it wasnt my lucky day. dlm susah payah berebut naik bas tuh, elok2 je…after the person in front of me berjaya memboloskan diri,dgn penuh gayanye…..pintu bas ditutup. WHAT THE HECK??? Felt hopeless, I just cannot imagine what kind of humiliation i’ll be facing that day. But to my surprised, when i turned my face to the left, I spotted one of my classmate, Dirza. Yay! I wasnt alone! at least i had a partner. takdela malu sgt.hehe. But she was way…kesian than me. She had waited for the bus since 7.20! ish ish ish. Then I turned my face to the right and i spotted Rahim!Hehe. what a life saver! I tried to send him some kind of nak-tumpang-leh-tak-signal n yay! he agreed. Thanks rahim for the ride! Fuh…with his help, i managed to arrived not that late. maybe 5 min lmbt jela. but still, it made a lot of difference. And thank god again becoz we had islamic studies as our first lesson that day. So, tak perasan sgt sape yg dtg lmbt sbb kena shift class sumer.
And that’s the story of that week. I thought my unlucky days with the bus had over la. But I was wrong! On the next monday (the same day with the world cup-huhu~~ asal france kalah?), my class started at 9. So, I was planning to go around 8.30 and get some sleep after subuh since I cannot sleep that nite.(read: bukan sbb tgk world cup. tp sbb diserang ngan bertubi-tubi oleh nyamuk2 yg zalim). Of course i overslept. I woke up at 8.45! What? Am i late again? I even had planned to play truant that day. But, since it doesnt worth anything, I spent the rest 15 minutes taking shower and riding a bus. I had told my deskmate to miscall me if the lecturer already came to the class. And to my despair, she miscalled me! Oh….What excuses im gonna give Miss Farahdiba? It was my fault anyway. So, any excuses didnt seem convincing enough.So, I just walked to my class with a im-so-sorry-for-being-late face, and she just doesnt say anythinG! HEY! i like her! very understanding lecturer. ahaha.
However…..since it has been 3 days in a row i’d come late to class, I am honoured "D LATE COMER" title.HAHA. malu gle! tp, ble pk2 balik, sbb title ni gak la, den macam glamer kat klas. haha. menarik gak ada imej nih. bak kata hafiz, "otai giler ko sal." n nmpk cool plak mcm nih. 
hehe. Well, im not telling u that im proud of it, but it is just the way i am. coz i really dont like to go early to class. I dont know, but i just feel bored doin nothin early in the morning. (maybe ni valid utk year11 je la..) And I will always be myself. Tunggu bas, paling awal kul 7.30 is truly salwani.
DONT SHOW ME UR CONCERN,
if u dont mean it
DONT GIVE ME HOPE
if it is just a lie
DONT PRETEND TO BE INNOCENT
if u think that wont reveal ur secret.
DONT BE NICE WITH ME
If u think u can easily fool me
becoz im just so SICK with these behaviours.
Why on earth this type of person should live?
Or why shud i encounter with them AGAIN?
I had enough of it and that’s it
I just cannot bear to let them hurt me again
JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE,
WOULD U?
COZ I DONT NEED SOMEONE THAT ARE FAKE AND HYPOCRITE
Just a few more days left before i went back to school(INTEC la..) n today im
officially submitted my letter to petronas that terminate my contract with them. Walking inside the highest building in msia (sigh…ketat gle security kat ctu!)
with my dad n went to level 9 in menara petronas 1, my heart throbbing in pain…ecece…But seriously, along the way to klcc, i kept questioning myself whether im choosing the right path or not. Will i be regretting myself in the future? Of course i do, n indeed even right now i already feel it.
N i pretty sure why i feel it that way.Its simply becoz im a materialistic person.
No doubt that i love money since i really love shopping.hehe. (parah la saper jd balak aku nnti…:P) Im pretty clear that if i quit petronas i am throwing such an expensive diamond into the sea. haha. Sometimes, ive been thinking on how im goin to react when meeting my schoolmate (esp rahim n other petronas fast track students) if there is a reunion. (oh..im hoping there will b a reunion for semashurian, but who’s gonna organize it??)Of course i will be jealous to see how successful they are working with petronas. N how much money they already had by that time compared to me who’ll be working with government and earning low salary. (hey, but i can have gov loan isnt it?? :P) n the dialogue below even came out in my dream, (i think so..)
"wah…dah mewah hidup ko skang!"
"tu la ko. saper suruh quit petronas. kalo tak, mesti ko jd cam aku gak. Kalo ko thn je lagi sikit, mesti ko dah jd chemical engineer yg berjaya"
OUch!!! hey, that’s hurt ok! But the "cepumas" question is, am I truly happy and satisfied being an engineer? Will i be a successful engineer?N can money cheer up my life?? After thinking like cracking my head, i just have to let off my materialistic thinking. Coz i do know myself n I know and quite clear where my strength is, what is my ability n what makes me happy. N try to haf a realistic thinking, im pretty sure, in the upcoming 10 years i may not afford to live in such a high tech condo or driving a black honda jazz or even wearing a sophisticated outfit from Zara.But i do realize, apart all these things, I can earn something that money cant buy. SATISFACTION. Below are some prediction that i made while i was in a disastrous dilemma. hehe.
PETRONAS as CHEMICAL ENGINEER
1. hidup mewah. in just 10 years, i can afford to buy a house, n car via cash dgn syarat aku tak boros la n haf a gud financial management.
2. Leh pakai baju2 yg cam best masa nak gi meeting ke apa.Lagi2 kalo meeting tu kat klcc. walaweh!splendid! (actually i really adore the way org2 yg keje pejabat nih pakai. mcm lynette n bree desperate housewves pkai tuh. :P)
3. byk tmpat leh pegi.(Tp of course la ke tmpt2 yg ada minyak. :P) pendek kata, maybe dlm setahun, ntah brapa kali ntah leh tour satu semenanjung. alang2 dah tour tuh, singgah sebentar di tmpt2 best nak shopping. muahkaka
4. leh dpt tiket free or at least diskaun nak msk dwn filharmonic. hey, i do enjoy that kind of concert altho setakat ni tak penah lg tgk secara live.
5. Earn bonus yg sgt byk. Nani ckp, keje ngan pet, leh dpt bonus 6 bln. wow!! byk gle!
JPA as a PHARMACIST
1. After 6 years working with gov n earn as much experience needed, im going to haf my own pharmacy . Pasang angan2 nak bukak pharmacy mcm quardian kat mana2 hot shopping complex mcm mid ke, klcc ke. Kalo time break ke apa, leh gi window shopping at least. muahkaka!Sonok gle weh!
2. Dpt keje office hour. 9-5 everyday. mlm leh relax n tgk tv. Duh…i hate working late. aku nak tdo la!!!
3. I can b a businesswoman as well in the field where my interest is. ! Meeting lots of people n negotiate with them to make lots of profit. (Arituh masa belek2 buku biodata, skali terbaca aijud;s speech. semoga impian ko nk jd businesswoman tercapai. hehe. thanks aijud. tetbe ko ingtkan aku balik cita2 sampingan aku tuh. cane la aku bleh terlupa aku nak jd businesswoman?)
4. Masuk lab n doin research bout drugs n how they react in our body. Aiyaiyai. Im totally excited when talking bout bio n chemistry n combining both, its so AWESOME!!
5. Jd pharmacist tak la glamer mana mcm jd doc. but hey! without us, there will be no medicine for all those patients…n instead of farmasi yg biasa je, ada gak bidang pharmaceutical yg deal ngan cosmetic company. haha. who knows, leh dpt produk percuma ke dr maybelline ke, loreal ke, ok la…support brgn buatan msia. sendayu tinggi….AHAHA.(hey, tp iklan dia cool gak la.ala..ada satu tu yg perempuan pegang kasut kecik byk2 dlm tapak tgn. mcm gempak. ingtkan iklan apa. rupa2nya sendayu tinggi.)
6. n of course, aku nak gak sedaya upaya wat research fasal ubat yg leh atasi resdung nih 100%. ey…rasa nak cabut je idung ni ble resdung dtg. sakit + gatal nye, ya allah, tuhan je la tahu. kalo setakat idung je takpe. ni ngan tekak, mata, kepala sumer. adoi…kalo resdung menyerang,sila pastikan anda mempunyai cukup tisu n eye mo.
Haha. inilah prediction by an unmatured teenager yg br 18 thn nak kenal erti idup. Some of them might be true, some might not. But i want to believe, that REZEKI ADA DI MANA2. n this is the prinsipal that i want to hold on now. becoz i know, my future will not be as bright as others n i may not earn as much money as some of them can, but i want to believe, I still can be a successful person in the future although from a different angle like others view. I believe that i can do better in this field compared to engineering. I believe that as long as im satisfied n happy with life, money doesnt mean anything. n i want to believe what i believe.
p/s: herm…i’ve told this to anna.
"anna, nnti ble ko dah keje ke, or dah smpai aussie ke, ko crkan aku chemical engineer lelaki yg keje ngan petronas tau. susah2 sgt kalo tak nak regret ngan choice yg aku dah wat nih, aku kawin je la ngan dia. okay tak? erm..kalo dia pon gi new zea lg bagus.tak kesah la. jnji chem engne n petronas. arasso? "
haha. hope that this wish might come true. live happily ever after mcm cte fairytale. ahaks!
Bingung aku dibuatnye..Nak idup senang ke nak kejar cita2? mana yg lebih penting? Kalo nak pk rationally, stay ngan petronas insyallah terjamin masa depan. idup pon senang la gak n semua org tak deny benda tuh.
Tp, kalo dh dpt option utk wat somethin yg kita minat dr dlu, tp risk dia, takkan idup senang mcm apa yg dah ada skang, which is the better decision?
Kalo aku amik jpa, mmg la sonok dpt wat sumthin yg kte ske.blaja bio sumer. n kalo susah mcm mana pon, kita dah ske, kita ttp gak try utk wat yg terbaik. tu lumrah la kan. but then, nnti tak leh idup senang mana. balik msia kene keje ngan kerajaan. pastuh, kalo ada rezki bleh la nak bukak farmasi sendrik. islam pon ckp, kalo berniaga, mmg la plg cpt nak kaya. tp, berniaga pon ada risk nye sendirk. huhu. nnti ble buat reunion sumer, tgk member dah pkai keta bmw ke, pakai baju zara, mng sumer, time tuh mesti regret sbb dulu drop pet. kalo tak, mesti aku pon cam diorg. hah. materialistik thinking nih mmg tak leh lari gak nye. although humble mana pon some1, tp when it comes to this situation, mesti gak terpk benda tuh. sbb dah ada peluang keemasan, tp tolak sbb nak kejar cita2.
tak deny la hidup ngan petronas idup mewah.masa foundation nih tak rasa la lg. tp, ble dah kat ovc tuh br nmpk beza. dr segi accomodation sumer 1st class. tp, kalo blaja pon, ati tak tenang sbb kena force diri blaja sumthin yg tak ske. m3. haha. kalo dah tak minat, or blaja ngan terpaksa,equation senang mana pon nmpk susah.tp betul ke m3 nih susah sgt? or is it sbb aku slama nih under pressure je yg wat aku rasa m3 tuh susah? tp, kalo dah nama nak wat engineering, mmg la kena deal ngan m3.tak leh lari.kalo drop pet, mcm sia2 je 5 bln blaja. alang2 dah half way through, baik habiskan je. tinggal 5 bln je lg pon. betul tuh. masalahnya. ada harapan lg ke?kalo keadaan sama n still tak berubah. result tak improve pon, silap2 aribulan tak leh fly. lg malang kalo dah grad esk, tak dpt keje ngan pet.hah, tak kaya gak. terkapai2 gak idup cr tempat kerja. so, apa yg patut dibuat? teruskan cita2? atau grab this opportunity nak jd kaya yg bukan sumer org leh dpt peluang nih.
persoalannya, kenapa duit ni penting sgt? pentingla. sbb dunia skang nih, harga barang sumer dah naik. 10 thn akan dtg tak tau la cane. nasi lemak yg skang nih $1.50 ntah2 leh jd $10. ngan tanggungjawab nak take care family lg. jd anak n cucu sulung bukan senang. byk responsible. nak tanggung adik2 blaja lg, nak jaga finance family lg. tak lama lg, parents pon dah pencen. ni adik2 nak masuk u sumer, saper nak bg duit blanja? takkan nak beban kat mak ayah lg? kena la tolong2 sket. sudahnya, kalo takde duit, tak leh nak tolong, mcm mana nak galas tanggungjawb jd anak sulung?
penin dibuatnya. masa dah suntuk. semoga cepatla petunjuk allah nih smpai. bantulah hambaMu ini ya Allah. aku mengharapkan petunjukmu dgn segera. lagi tangguh wat keputusan, lagi teruk natijahnye nnti. penin, bingung n nak pengsan… aiyak!
"there are tons of things you cant exactly tell your friends when u talk to them,but somehow you have the guts to write them in ur blog even tho it’ll be read by everyone including these very same friends.strange,isn’t it?" -professor ateqs
herm..this new post maybe to some people its just UNINTERESTING BLABBERING of mine. huh..lantak. aku tak kesah. well, blog is created to publish our thoughts n that’s the point. i just want to write as much as i can to burst all the things that i kept inside my heart which is somehow tends to killing me! (duh…exaggerate gel..) but still i’m not very happy rite now.so,saper yg nak baca, baca. saper yg tanak sudah. im not forcing u. (pergh…sounds rebellious gle…:P) this past few days im glad that i had gone through my bad day with such an improvement attitude. I started to accept things dengan redha, be stronger than before n also learned how to manage certain things independently without the help of my parents. Yeah, I’m quite proud of myself coz finally I succeed in throwing away some of my bad attitudes.
If u gain something, u have to lose something. At this particular moment, I think the quote suits me well. Becoz there is a price that I have to pay for all these lessons. N the price is the loss of trust from my parents on me. Since the day im losing my hp, I rarely have conversation with my parents esp my dad. I know he was totally disappointed with me. I personally don’t have the guts to talk to him. N my dad plak seems mcm still bengang+kecewa with me up until now.I feel so sad and lost in my own family.Every conversation I had with dad, he will mentioned bout money n stuff. Oh…that’s so torturing! Enuff la..ive learnt my lesson. Can I have a 2nd chance plz. Its been a week benda tuh dah jadi kan, so, what’s is the use of crying over split milk?i know la that 7250i tuh expensive, n since rite now our family financial is not stable enough, its so pathetic to lose that hp. I just want them to know and proud that im not the old salwani. I mean, I’ve changed a little bit. I learnt to be more responsible. I think that value is more valuable than what I’ve learnt in geography bout climate n etc. I learnt to be an adult mum, dad.
Each and every child in this world want to make their parents proud of them, and so do i. With so many things n challenges I have to face this year, which somehow turned my life upside down, there’s not so much thing I can show my parents to make them proud of having me as their daughter. If before, I can make them happy by showing them my results but now I cannot do so since im doing badly in ausmat. With my horrendous transition state I experienced in intec, I felt that this year Ive been burdening them so much. Sometimes I felt guilty to my family coz they’ve been trying so hard n try to do the best they can just to make sure that im not going through such a depressed life in intec. But they way I pay them is by showing my bad result n losing hp. Sometimes, I frustrated of being myself.I give up.Give up to continue myself with this way and thank god, sebaik aku tak terpk nak suicide lg. huhu. No doubt this year is a tough year for me. There is so much things I had to cope with. While most of my frenz out there, is having such a gud time hang out in KLCC or playing bowling in MID or perhaps watch movies over n over again in sunway, I was stranded in INTEC. Having a difficult time to suit myself in new environment and living such a hectic life. Can u ever imagine, class from 8-6 everyday. Oh…kat semashur dlu pon takde r teruk mcm nih. N worse, although I’ve put so much effort on my study(hoho. Aku rasa mcm 10X ganda rajin compared masa kat semashur dlu), but still end up getting low B and if worse C. Pastuh ngan peer pressure lg. but this time pressure of having frenzy yg almost 99.9% of them bapak rajin macam izat n mai or having an Einstein’s brain inside their skull. Oh..i felt so left behind in many ways, including my studies n social life. Yet, my family was never left me behind. They owez b there for me. They will support me in any ways. (Including my idea of changing course).I feel safe n contented by their love. Thank you Allah for giving me such a caring family.
But now..i’ve ruined it. I’ve ruined everything. I just don’t know what more I can do to overcome this situation. I want to have back the feeling of being so contented and relief like I felt before..coz rite now im lost. I feel like something is missing. And being at home is not the same as before. Im in such turmoil n the pain inside is unbearable. I just hope that somehow, someday, it will be better. Hoping that the time is not that long. (sigh….) aiyaiyai…asal cam edisi blues nih?
takpela..sekali sekala. kan aku dah kata jgn baca. adoi…
HELP!HELP!..i just cannot help myself to stop blogging. Each n every second, i will have idea of a new post. aiyak…smpai t’bw2 dlm mimpi tuh…aku dah wat byk gle post. bgn2, la…br 2 je post. hampeh…NANI!!! is there any cure for this illness? im so addicted! oh man….. herm..i would like to share with u some facts about myself, in case u guys dont really know who i am.ahaks!
1.cannot touch,see,or do anything with onions, shallots, garlics or anything related to them
herm…this is the problem. every1 knows that onions n its family is playing a major role in cooking. without this ingredient ur cooking will be something different, something missing n yeah…tak sdp! so, how am i going to cook delicious foods if everytime i see or smell shallots, i will feel like vomiting!!(dah penah pon termuntah.tu kes yg tak thn sgt la…) huhu. ive been trying so many times to overcome this problem such as hold my breath whenever i have to peel its skin or anything to do with it. but…never succeed.as a last resort, my mom awl2 dah blend all the shallots,onions n garlic n placed it in tupperware. so, whenever i feel like cooking, its already there in fridge.i dont know y this happened to me. its like mcm shallots tu maggots yg kat dlm fearfactor tuh.n whenever i haf to deal with shallots,rasa mcm ngah masuk fearfactor je.. yeah..teruknya anggap food disgusting mcm tuh. tp…like i say, i just cannot help myself. Sbb tu la..kalo ada kenduri ke apa, rasa malas gle nak tlg kat dapur. coz the common task they usually ask teenagers to do is to peel off the shallot’s skins.aiyak….
p/s: but i do like the smell when garlic is being fried.kira mcm nak masak tumis la..
2. FEAR OF LEECHES, WORMS N ANYTHING RELATED TO THEM
ok..attention, this is not the issue of GELI. seriously this is the issue of fear,phobia and might contribute to death. haha.exaggerate gle!ok. maybe guys dont really understand about this fear like girls do.thus,even some of them enjoy making fun of us with this animals.tp this kind of animals is totally disgusting to us n we just cannot bear with it. even, i myself hampir2 nak pitam when i found out there is an ENORMOUS leech sucking up my blood during camping ketua2 pengws district level when i was in standard 6.(act that is the ONLY time entire my life kena gigit ngan leech, but the impact??? is so TERRIBLE!!!smpai skang tak leh lupa!). ok, down ere is little facts bout my fren n animals they scared of.
P/S: although i hate leech n worms but i do enjoy jungle trekking n stuff. so, i dun mind pakai socks kat luar track bottom like we always do in our primary school days.
3. ive never eat nasi lemak with its sambal.
hehe. all of u must be thinking,"la..apa nikmat makan nasi lemak without sambal?" yeah i know. sambal la actually determined whether the nasi lemak is delicious or not. But i cannot eat them.accurately, im scared of eating sambal. first, becoz the red colour of the sambal n second is becoz usually there are onions in that sambal.aiyak…its not that i cannot eat hot n spicy food, but…im just scared. pelikkan?scared with red colour yg menyala2. hoho. but ironically, i like red. i feel so energetic when im wearing red.but when it comes to food, my appetite suddenly disappeared. vanish…(but not all the time la. if im so starving, anything would be just yumm yumm!:D)
" You can complain besause roses have thorns or you can rejoice because thorns have roses"
Haha. now, i think i know exactly what is the meaning of this quotes. well, after few BAD things happened to me this couple of days, i started to have a different perception towards life. herm…its pretty hard to describe what life is all about coz its too subjective. but to me, clearly, life is a journey, where u r heading to a destination, but along the way, there will b lots of circumstances occur, n not to neglect, sometimes u will encounter valuable lessons.(adoi…haha. aku tahu kalo 9 baca nih, sure dia ckp…"bosan, membebel, tak best". ) so, i guessed i better stop ere n continue to what im going to write about. yes, to write bout the day when everything seems wrong. pergh…kalo kuar esei spm, sure aku skor A1 nye la coz the bad things is so…..INTOLERABLE!!
17th May 2006. Entire my life i will never ever forget this day. its not just about what had happened to me, but also the valuable lesson i learned that day. yup, its d day when we, fast track petronas in intec decided to spent our time together after a horrensdous (this is what i feel la…) exam week. We went to GENTING!!!yeeha!! the euphoria can be easily recognized. Every1 is so happy but im sure aliyas is the most excited person coz it was his first time though…(n of course with esther being his partner there.ceh, tak penah berenggang! :D)
1st, we went to ghost house. Eerie, spooky, scary….duh..yoyo jer. my advise, not worth it beratur panjang2 tunggu nak masuk rumah hantu kat genting. takder mender pon. thank god that day is working day n we dun haf to wait so long for just a 3 minute ride in a bosan gle umah hntu.. next, i went on solero shot n go kart. herm, this time is pretty cool. haha. sitting next to danni who is totally nervous that day, keep saying, "oh my god.i dont think i can make it.this is insane!" haha. n finally congrates danni! u finally make it! best kan??being weigthless for 1 minute, hey, ok la tuh. tak dpt jd kurus, dpt rasa jd kurus enuff la.ahaks!
we took a break after playing go kart for zohor prayer n the moment of unbearable pain is just about to start.i went to the toilet nearby since there was no place for muslimah to take their ablution.when i was in toilet, the spectacles that hung from the collar of my shirt suddenly fell into the toilet bowl,and unfortunately,there was nothing i could do to salvage them.To make it worse, the toilet bowl was the type that seemingly led straight down into an abyss,making it impossible for me to scoop out my specs.huhu. i was speechless. oh come on! i just bought the spec early this year n i used it with my own money!!! n its so hard to find spec that suits me well. n now? the spec is peacefully "bersemadi" with all those grossy things kat genting???that is so ridiculous! huhu…there;s nothing i can do except, "ok…just let it go..ada hikmah…"although deep inside, i still cannot accept it. huhu.nvm.
ok to make it short. After maghrib prayer, when i was checking my hp inside my handbag and pocket, it wasnt there! seriously! check byk2 kali pon takde gak. takde weh! huhu. cane nih?? plz dont say i lost my hp as well. after the loss of my spec, then now hp??GREAT! This is totally great. im blank! speechless for the second time. and at that time i can imagine d faces of my parents. there’s no anger but more to dissapointment. how i took things for granted. how irresponsible i was in taking care of my things n how ungrateful i was of having hp since the morib incident (where i carelessly main kayak dgn bwk hp smpai 3310 yg aku jaga 4 almost 5 years rosak masuk air!huhu)
N sah, my hp kena picpocket! huhu. im sad?OF COURSE!! but surprisingly, im not crying. tak menangis lgsng!! (take note ek hafiz n chicha! aku tak spt yg dijangkakan korg!
but in this post, what i want to highlight here is, after all that happened to me that day, i was touched by the effort of my frenz,my new frenz which most of them, i only knew for only 5 months. All of them generously wat derma kilat 4 me . huhu.seriously, i was so touch! thanks frenz! those money im going to spend it to buy my new spec.thank u so much! after this, aku boleh melihat sebab korang tau! haha. bangga tak? now i realize frenship is nothing to do with how long u’ve known them but its about how u really appreciate it.
n those my semashurian frenz, thanks 4 all ur moral support.kata2 semangat korng wat aku bersemangat nak teruskan idup. ecece. (haha.fizah n ateqs sure tahu mcm mana tak keruan nye aku without hp.). ok2. i know u guys dah bored to read my blabbering. so, i’ll better stop now.haha.
p/s: nani u r totally rite. blogging can be so addictive!
ATTENTION! ATTENTION! ATTENTION!
Ok! take note everyone! on this glorious day of 20th of may 2006, finally, salwani managed to launch her own blog! clap3! phew…it takes me bout 5 months i think since aijud suggested me to have my own blog. i still remember his words,some kind like this, "ey sal! u too shud haf ur own blog. its a way of letting others know anything happened to u n keep in touch with them. So, although u r in intec n im in sunway, i will know ur latest story," hehe. N within these period of time, i realize bunch of my frens have started to have their own blog, writing their frustration, memorable event in their life n not to forget crappy little things which somehow impressively managed to made me laugh like a mad little gurl. 
Even fatin nadiah n 9 have their own blog. (no offence ere. its just suddenly ur guys names popped up into my head :D)
so, feelin like i was left far behind compared to others and not to waste more time, there u go! the launch of sal’s blog! hope that with this blog, i can improve my english (like mr azmi-ielts lecturer said, writing helps u a lot in improving ur english) n therefore hoping to get band 9 in ielts.haha. can i?if not, at least get above 6.5 is enuff coz there’s no need for me to repeat for the test, which, if i haf to do so, it will be a disastrous event in my life! haha. sorry coz its just nonsense crap ere, but it is meaningful to me coz its about im entering a new phase in life. err….is it??dunno la…. ahaks! herm, so what ya waitin for frenz? gimme comment!
