im hepi.
im spirited again.
im at full throttle
it were just a few simple sentences.
easy to be understood
easy to be thought of
but the impact was so huge.
after a long search
after struggling to trace
finally ive found the right sentences
to regain back myself
to bring back myself to the reality.
to keep on moving with full of liveliness.
thanks
terima kasih
arigatou
kamsa hamnida
may allah bless you =)
This is just another emotional rambling of salwani bout her life.To motivate herself to move on with her ’serabut’ life. But she wrote this from a new perspective. But once again, this is just another rambling. So please do not bother to read because it may just wasting your time. Yet, if u still insist to read it, she wud be very happy if u may as well drop a comment. (ceh….perasan gle ada org nak baca blog neh…agagagaga)
TOPIC = SHE’S STRESSED!!!!!!!!
BEFORE (in Malaysia)
She’s stressed. So, she will :-
1. Talk to somebody that will listen to her
2. Cry
3. Feeling homesick
4. Pessimistic thoughts will overwhelmed her (e.g How she wish to turn back time,how she wish to be somebody else)
AFTER (in Australia)
She’s stressed. But she :-
1.Kept it inside.
Reason she kept it inside :
i) She may feel not comfortable yet to share bout it with her new frens.
ii) She wants to become independent. She’s 20 in its about the time to stand on her own feet
2. She keeps telling herself to let the bygones be bygones and continuously reminding herself to think positive.
(NB: Thats y she need to talk to someone so that she can channel
her pessimistic thoughts into a positive one.)
Implication :
i) She hardly cry.
ii)She honestly not feeling homesick.
PEPATAH MELAYU : sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit
Finally…she reached the peak of her patience level. She cannot hold it anymore..And she burst out the tears at last.(its not that she hold her tears b4 this, but the tears
just couldnt come out and thats such a devastating feeling!) And this time,
she cried alone in her messy room (the effect after struggling finishing her poster project) with no one pampering her and telling her that everything’s gonna b alright. She was all her by herself.
However, she enjoyed the moment. She treasured the feeling of being able to cry again. She felt as if suddenly all her problems disappear. She felt such a relief as she can finally cry.
Her stomach suddenly growling. So she went to the kitchen and reheat her lunch box and turned on the tv. It was dr phil talk show. Since she was alone and feeling like to have a companion, so she just watched it. and next.. it was oprah talk show.. Watching both talk shows, the feeling of not giving up and enthusiastic aroused herself. She suddenly channeled her desperation into an inspiration. She suddenly strongly believed that what happened today was a sign from the Almighty and that might be the turning point for her to change her life. She suddenly gain the momentum to move on with her life and be brave to face all the challenges.
CONCLUSION
1. She proud of herself for being able to get through her terrible day all by herself. (credit given to aji as she tremendously help her in some way)
2. She is confident that by stranded here in WA, she is now able to train herself to become more ‘tabah’
3. She is in full momentum to start her life all over again and do her best to struggle for her upcoming final exam.
"Salwani, mungkin semua ni ujian dr Allah utk sedarkan dirimu yang kau sepatutnye bangun dr mimpi lena itu. Kau perlu berusaha keras. Jangan main2 lagi.. tetapkan di mana sasaranmu and jadilah dirimu yang dlu yang akan cuba sedaya upaya mendapatkan apa yang kau mahukan.Ingat lah Salwani…bahawa Allah sentiasa bersama dengan hambaNYA. dan DIA takkan mengujimu seandainye DIA tahu kamu tak mampu menghadapi dugaan tu. So, wake up gurl! Live ur life to the fullest! Never ever give up.U’ll able to face it. Yep, its tough, but in the end, u’ll treasure the hard time very much. When u started to lose hope, always remember that surah baqarah (216). Insyaallah…kau akan berjaya SALWANI…. =) "
