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"Hello..Assalamualaikum…Em..saya call nih nak tanya fasal placement uni saya."
"Em..Nama siapa nih? Kos apa? "
"Siti Salwani Razali. Pharmacy"
"Oh..adik dpt CUrtin."
"Curtin?? Er…Nak tanya sket bleh?Bleh tak kalo nak wat rayuan tuka uni?
"Oh..tak bleh….Kalo adik buat rayuan pon, mmg kte takkan layan..lagi2 kalo pharmacy"

The scene took place yesterday; near the escalator in front of Mid Valley Exhibition Centre. Beside me was Ateqs and at that time I was just 5 minutes walked out from Studio R holding my Nike sports shoes that ive just bought….My main point here, the state of contentment, excitement,  and satisfaction of having new pair of sport shoes + memorable time with my best frens back in Semashur  were ruined by a  simple communication with 1 of the JPA officer..

CURTIN UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY….
Location: Perth (specifically Bentley)

This is where i’ll be spending my next 4 years time as pharmacy student. It is one of the best school of pharmacy in Aus. (To note, The highest TER among all uni that offer pharm there). Hah..dah dpt uni terbaek pon, tak bersyukur lg…. I know i should be grateful that JPA will send me there, yet…deep inside, i know its gonna be tougher this time. From information that ive obtained from senior and frens, life as a pharmacy student there is hard.To put it simpler, once again, i have to go thru a hectic, busy, pressure life as what ive been go thru dis 2 years (perhaps i should  pay more attention on preparing my mental and physical-so that i can survive there; rather than checking what are things that i should bring or what are the things that needs to be settled now). Ausmatian may know how troublesome to do the ESLS investigation and guess what? Yeah..I need to the same thing even in my first year but this time with harder topic and i have to pay SERIOUS attention on plagiarism..This is just part of the reasons why ive felt 1001 of emotions once i knew my placement there..(most of the proportion = pessimistic thoughts).

Yup, i know im sounding like a person who is not thankful enough on those blessings that ive got so far. I know im like a loser; already surrender without even try it all. The truth is…. i dont have the confidence to go thru such a hectic life again..i dont think that i can stand the unbearable pain for the second or should i put it third time
? (considering ive been thru ausmat hectic life twice..ahaha.)

However, to think on the bright side, Allah knows the best for me and everything happens for reasons.Who knows my future husband is an engineer that’s studying in Curtin ke..(ahaha.kenapa msti pk jauh smpai ke husband ye?? lantak la!!! dh tetbe terpk cmtuh.Nk wat camne… Yon pon ckp mende yg sama.

"Aku rsa ko bertemu jodoh di sana la Sal..")

Whatever the reasons are, i just have to redha with what Allah has decided for me. I must face the challenge with positive thinking that i can overcome all the obstacles. yeah! Salwani boleh! gambattene SAL!!

To put myself in others shoes, I should be grateful enough that i
can fly, that i receive placement for uni. Think bout those who pass
the TER requirement for both sponsor and uni placement yet they can no
longer hold on to their dream to fly with other frenz due to limited
place for pharmacy student…Sad facts to bear, but that’s the reality.
While some of JPA scholars have already started to smile again when JPA
agreed to lower down the cut off point but to few; the pain of losing
hope is so… unbearable.Just imagine, once u’ve known ur result, u
know that u’ve the chance to fly (as u’ve passed all the requirements),
tellin ur parents that uve succeed and seeing their happy faces;
suddenly u have to tell them, "Sorry mom n dad, I can either go to
indon or do twinning at IMU" Sdey gle!!! I cannot imagine myself to be
in their situation. They must’ve felt devastated. =( But that’s the
fact. That’s life.As fren, im lost for words to comfort them. =(

Tp…ble pk balik…(Ye aji..aku dgr suara ko membebel ckp aku ni pk byk sgt…ahaha),mampukah aku survive kat curtin tuh? Sumer dak2 pharm intec yg gi sana sumer result superb2. Tu br intec. Local students tak tau lagi. If not mistaken, ive heard one of senior there said this

"The locals are damn smart!They even think y12 was too easy for them."

mommy!!! IM DAMN SCARED~ tanak fly  cani. bleh? ahahaa. OK sAL…u better stop talking nonsense now. BE POSITIVE!!! yeah! POSITIVE!! alamak..cam sesi motivasi la plak. yeah..but i do need motivation rite now. Being isolated in western part of australia, tetbe tringat plak shahir ckp

"And Perth wud be the last place i want to visit in aussie".

Gosh!! tidak!! fikiran berkecamuk!! I guess i should take rest now. Try to breathe in some fresh air to freshen up my mind. Hope next time i’ll create a more positive tone of post……

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