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And all will be well
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself
All will be well
You can ask me how but only time will tell

You got to keep it up
And don’t give up
And chase your dreams
And you will find
All in time

Im not sure how many times I’ve played the song "All Will Be Well" by The Gabe Dixon Band for today. Sampai bleh hafal dah dia nye lirik. ahaha. Well, apart from "mengadu" kat Allah and talk to some of my fren, this song has been one of my fast healing therapy over the Curtin’s issue.hehe.And infinity thanks to Anna and Yon for being there for me. I  appreciate all ur comfy words and advice. And the rest who is not mentioned here (byk la..tak larat nak type..)  arigatou ne~~ u guys r totally a gud fren of me. =) sbb korgnye kata2 smangat ni la, aku cepat heal nih. cewah! =P

"Walaupun realiti sbnrnya amat menyakitkan tp buat cam biasa je
la..Nnti dah lm2 ok la tu…ble dah alami sendri camne kat sana. Org je
ckp tak best, tp ntah2 best gler kat sana…" -kimi

"x baek cmtu..Bukan calang2 org dpt gi sana" -piepah

"but Allah is ALWAYS the best planner.Dont worry too much.Indeed you might be feeling a little bit down and disappointed. But despair not the plannings of Allah because He has great plans for you.You’ve strive to get pass the marks and requirements.You’ve aimed for what you wanted.But if you didn’t get what you wanted.In the end, maybe its just you deserve something better.

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not. (al baqarah, ayat 216)" -anna

"first yg best, perth ni tempat yg sesuai utk belajar la.means not in the middle of city but not far from city.5 minutes jer.landscape-one of the best;greenery
surrounding. =)"-izat

"takpe sal. Senior aku kata leh save banyak kalo tinggal kat Perth. kat situ murah gle cost of living dia…So kalo duit utk shopping tu mmg byk la nnti…."-yon

"takpelah.Curtin pon bagus gak.Senang balek malaysia.Ikut time malaysia.So ko leh la call mak ko bile2 masa.Takyah pk time difference"-hanna othman

Carlos Casteneda quotes "The basic difference between an ordinary man and a warrior is that a warrior takes everything as a challenge while an ordinary man takes everything either as a blessing or a curse”

I guess, for now im choosing to become a warrior. No more sorrow,gloomy or unavailing remorse over the Curtin issue. Ive decided to accept the fact that i’ll go there and survive. And do whatever I can to brush up my potential there. Which uni im going to enroll is not a big matter after all.Its all up to me rite?…the choice is in my hand and i choose to be optimistic bout this. I choose to be positive. And I choose to stop being childish. Im 20 next year and i must quickly throw away my immature way of thinking. Yes…i’ve promised myself to always look on the brighter side. I vowed to myself, that no matter how hard my life will be later on, I must stand still, bear the pain and never ever give up.mencuri status ym anna;

"sometimes you couldnt see the sun but the light could shines before your eyes."

So…Curtin, Here I come! I’ll make sure u’ll not regret for offering me a place there. And to JPA, i’ll prove to you one day, that it’s more than worth it to sponsor me all this while and thank you for believing in my potential and giving me the opportunity to study overseas.. cewah…confident gle sal! takpe2. as long as salwani dah kembali bersemangat itu sudah mencukupi! yeah.. sal kena tabah! ahaks! =D

Mencoret kata2 azli,

"Tak kesah la dpt mana2 pon, msti ada keseronokan gak kat situ. Terpulangla kpd aku camne aku nak hargai keseronokan tu…dlu aku pon rasa skola asis tak besh, ausmat intec cam pemusnah masa depan, tp last2 aku dpt gak atasi sumernye n jadik kenangan terindah aku, so aku rasa 4 thn lg aku akan berkata… BEST GLE CURTIN!!"

ye..smoge 2011 nnti, i’ll graduate from that uni and saying "CURTIN IS THE BEST, SUPERB, WONDERFUL, UNIVERSITY ON EARTH!!!" ahaks! =)

"Hello..Assalamualaikum…Em..saya call nih nak tanya fasal placement uni saya."
"Em..Nama siapa nih? Kos apa? "
"Siti Salwani Razali. Pharmacy"
"Oh..adik dpt CUrtin."
"Curtin?? Er…Nak tanya sket bleh?Bleh tak kalo nak wat rayuan tuka uni?
"Oh..tak bleh….Kalo adik buat rayuan pon, mmg kte takkan layan..lagi2 kalo pharmacy"

The scene took place yesterday; near the escalator in front of Mid Valley Exhibition Centre. Beside me was Ateqs and at that time I was just 5 minutes walked out from Studio R holding my Nike sports shoes that ive just bought….My main point here, the state of contentment, excitement,  and satisfaction of having new pair of sport shoes + memorable time with my best frens back in Semashur  were ruined by a  simple communication with 1 of the JPA officer..

CURTIN UNIVERSITY OF TECHNOLOGY….
Location: Perth (specifically Bentley)

This is where i’ll be spending my next 4 years time as pharmacy student. It is one of the best school of pharmacy in Aus. (To note, The highest TER among all uni that offer pharm there). Hah..dah dpt uni terbaek pon, tak bersyukur lg…. I know i should be grateful that JPA will send me there, yet…deep inside, i know its gonna be tougher this time. From information that ive obtained from senior and frens, life as a pharmacy student there is hard.To put it simpler, once again, i have to go thru a hectic, busy, pressure life as what ive been go thru dis 2 years (perhaps i should  pay more attention on preparing my mental and physical-so that i can survive there; rather than checking what are things that i should bring or what are the things that needs to be settled now). Ausmatian may know how troublesome to do the ESLS investigation and guess what? Yeah..I need to the same thing even in my first year but this time with harder topic and i have to pay SERIOUS attention on plagiarism..This is just part of the reasons why ive felt 1001 of emotions once i knew my placement there..(most of the proportion = pessimistic thoughts).

Yup, i know im sounding like a person who is not thankful enough on those blessings that ive got so far. I know im like a loser; already surrender without even try it all. The truth is…. i dont have the confidence to go thru such a hectic life again..i dont think that i can stand the unbearable pain for the second or should i put it third time
? (considering ive been thru ausmat hectic life twice..ahaha.)

However, to think on the bright side, Allah knows the best for me and everything happens for reasons.Who knows my future husband is an engineer that’s studying in Curtin ke..(ahaha.kenapa msti pk jauh smpai ke husband ye?? lantak la!!! dh tetbe terpk cmtuh.Nk wat camne… Yon pon ckp mende yg sama.

"Aku rsa ko bertemu jodoh di sana la Sal..")

Whatever the reasons are, i just have to redha with what Allah has decided for me. I must face the challenge with positive thinking that i can overcome all the obstacles. yeah! Salwani boleh! gambattene SAL!!

To put myself in others shoes, I should be grateful enough that i
can fly, that i receive placement for uni. Think bout those who pass
the TER requirement for both sponsor and uni placement yet they can no
longer hold on to their dream to fly with other frenz due to limited
place for pharmacy student…Sad facts to bear, but that’s the reality.
While some of JPA scholars have already started to smile again when JPA
agreed to lower down the cut off point but to few; the pain of losing
hope is so… unbearable.Just imagine, once u’ve known ur result, u
know that u’ve the chance to fly (as u’ve passed all the requirements),
tellin ur parents that uve succeed and seeing their happy faces;
suddenly u have to tell them, "Sorry mom n dad, I can either go to
indon or do twinning at IMU" Sdey gle!!! I cannot imagine myself to be
in their situation. They must’ve felt devastated. =( But that’s the
fact. That’s life.As fren, im lost for words to comfort them. =(

Tp…ble pk balik…(Ye aji..aku dgr suara ko membebel ckp aku ni pk byk sgt…ahaha),mampukah aku survive kat curtin tuh? Sumer dak2 pharm intec yg gi sana sumer result superb2. Tu br intec. Local students tak tau lagi. If not mistaken, ive heard one of senior there said this

"The locals are damn smart!They even think y12 was too easy for them."

mommy!!! IM DAMN SCARED~ tanak fly  cani. bleh? ahahaa. OK sAL…u better stop talking nonsense now. BE POSITIVE!!! yeah! POSITIVE!! alamak..cam sesi motivasi la plak. yeah..but i do need motivation rite now. Being isolated in western part of australia, tetbe tringat plak shahir ckp

"And Perth wud be the last place i want to visit in aussie".

Gosh!! tidak!! fikiran berkecamuk!! I guess i should take rest now. Try to breathe in some fresh air to freshen up my mind. Hope next time i’ll create a more positive tone of post……

Have you ever been down and out
and nobody seems to be around for u to talk to
THAT’S ALLAH….he wants u to talk to him..

Have u ever been just sitting there
and all of a sudden u feel like doing nice for someone u care for
THAT’S ALLAH….he talks to u..

Have u ever been thinking about somebody
that u haven’t seen in a long time
and then next thing u see them or receive a phone call/sms from them
THAT’S ALLAH….there’s no such thing as "coincidence"

Have u ever received something wonderful
that u didn’t even ask for
THAT’S ALLAH….he knows the desires of your heart

Have u ever been in a situation
and u had no clue how it is going to get better
but now u look back on it
THAT’S ALLAH….he passes us thru tribulation to see a brighter day..

<OBviously this piece of thoughts wasnt from me. i copied it from sumwhere and alter it a lil bit. hehe. Just wanna share it coz once ive read this, the sense of tranquility, serenity, and peaceful overwhelmed me.. =) >